Its funny last night I was lying in bed thinking about how i'll be thirty in a few minutes. I remember a few months ago thinking how scary this is and how I wasn't at all keen on it. But you know what - last night as I watched the clock turn to 12 I couldn't help but smile. Turning 30 made me feel happy!20's had its up's and downs - I had such high high's and such low low's.
At the beginning of 20 I was a new(ish) married girl working full time but wasn't overly happy, at the end of 20 I was a woman, a fully qualified wife and also a mother of 2 precious children working 24 hrs a day!
I have travelled, not as much as i'd like but I still have. I have seen places i've dreamed of seeing since I was a child. I've seen the bright lights of vegas and the photographed the hollywood sign. I've taken in the beauty of yosemite national park and driven over the golden gate bridge in a leaky bus. I've been in the crowd watching the ice hockey where the mighty ducks won a game they weren't expected to and i've yelled 'quack quack quack'.. i've cheered on the lakers. I've spotted Denzel Washington in a crowd of thousands.
I've been in labour for 30 hours, pregnant for 20 months and have changed more nappies than I could ever count. I've met more specialists than i'd ever care to, but at the same time met the most beautiful people I wouldn't otherwise meet.
I've had my heart broken into a million pieces and managed to pick them all back up.. on more than one occassion.
I've smiled and laughed when I wanted to scream, and kept going when everyone else wouldn't blame me if I gave up.
I've watched 2 precious babies grow inside my tummy, i've watched them take their first breaths, take their first steps and say their first words.
I've grown more in love with my gorgeous husband, each and every single day.
I've lost friends, i've gained friends.. I've had friends stick by me, and others get up and leave.
I've been involved with church, i've left 2 churches and i've been hurt deeply by church members.. heck i've even hung up on the pastor!
I've grown, inside and out. (shame not up!)
I've lost weight, i've gained weight. I've had long hair and short. I've had dark, blonde and red hair - all over the past 12 months!
But in the end everything that has happened has made me .. me.
So the last 10 years have shaped me to who and what I am today..
I am stronger
I am able
I am me
I was reading this quote Renee and thought of you. As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.
ReplyDeleteIts funny as a mum of 3 healthy children sometimes I catch myself out I've been yelling at the kids for something stupid like how messy their rooms are or something in the house they have done and then realise that my gosh is it really that bad.......I take for granted that they are only minor things and I am forgetting to appreciate my kids for just being themselves.
Your a fantastic and amazing mum renee, you are the best mother I have ever met and your children are so lucky to have you as their mum they are so blessed!!! xoxoxo